Thursday, July 26, 2012

Thinking of Cody


It's already been almost a month we've spent without our sweet Cody boy.  I think of that funny dog every day, and I also think about his sweet brother who seems to be doing so well.  I had to write a paper for my summer class (2 post grad credits!!) and thought I'd share some pictures and the paper, edited, here.


Cody and Riley were patient with us as we got our yard done in phases, but they were living like kings since April when we finally finished all of the sod and fencing!  Here they are with Jeremy and our newly planted tree we named "Geoffry" :)




         Just about two weeks after the class, Jeremy and I set out on a trip we’d been planning for several months.  He’s a die-hard Red Sox fan, played college baseball, and is in love with the sport, but still hadn’t seen a single MLB game, let alone his beloved Sox play.  I’d remembered from my first two classes that we should really work to fill that part of our ARFF and just give ourselves what we want, but when we considered going out to Boston to see them play at Fenway, it just wasn’t going to work financially at this point in our lives.  We “went to solution” and decided the next best thing would be to watch them play the Mariners in Seattle, which was a more realistic trip.  Not 24 hours after we decided we should do it, Jeremy bought the tickets; I think possibly he really wanted to go?!
            We took our time on the way out to Seattle, stopping for a night in Missoula where we ate at Buffalo Wild Wings, our favorite restaurant, which we don’t have in Great Falls.  That night, we didn’t think our original plan of shopping all day in Spokane sounded as fun anymore, so we gave ourselves what we really wanted all along: a day in Silverwood theme park!  This was also a first for Jeremy, as he’d never ridden a rollercoaster, and a first for me, as Miss Planner has never done anything quite that spontaneous!  The day was great because we felt like two crazy kids, and had the best time.  We then ate at Olive Garden, our second favorite restaurant, that night on our way back to our hotel.  We reminded ourselves of giddy kids each time we said to the other, “Wasn’t this the best day?!” or “I’m so glad we did this together!”

Finally, it was Friday, the day we got to drive to Seattle and go to the game.  When we arrived in Seattle, we realized how spoiled we are in Montana with no crazy traffic and confusing interchanges, but we found our way to our hotel thanks to a GPS!  We got changed (me in full Mariners gear, and Jeremy in full Red Sox gear) and got to our shuttle (there’d be no more driving for these two Montana kids in downtown Seattle).  The game was a blast, the Red Sox hit many home runs and won the game, and we headed back to our hotel, deciding what we’d do on Saturday, my birthday, and our last day of the trip.  A cute couple we’d met on our shuttle to the game insisted we go to Pike’s Market, so we decided to take their advice.  Back at the hotel, I made my nightly check-in with my Mom, who, each previous night, was curious about our trip and always ready with an update on our “boys”, Cody and Riley, our two shelties they were babysitting.  Mom was unusually quiet and didn’t seem to want to know too much about the day, but I figured she was just tired. 

The next morning we woke up early to grab some breakfast, get ready, and make it to the shuttle to take us to Pike’s Market.  We had just sat down to eat when Jeremy got a call from a number not in his contacts, but from Sunburst, Montana.  As I curiously listened in on his half of the conversation and watched his face turn from curiosity to panic, I knew something was really wrong.   He got off the phone and broke the news: Cody had been found by a Border Patrol agent on his way back from his midnight shift on the side of the interstate, struck by a car, and no longer living. 

I called my mom thinking that she’d have no idea that he was even missing from the house, let alone hit by a car.  She heard the news and broke down crying, saying that he’d gone missing about 1:00 the afternoon before and they’d tirelessly searched the town for him, sending kids out on bikes, and spreading word to everyone.  They didn’t tell us he was missing because they just knew he’d return safely and didn’t want us to worry on our trip.  As any “dog person” would understand, this was a devastating call to get on any day, let alone a vacation and birthday.  We left our breakfast uneaten and went back to our room.  Then, we came to the decision that continuing our vacation from this point wouldn’t be enjoyable, so we packed up and made the long 12 ½ hour drive from Seattle to Sunburst.  Mom and Dad had given Cody a very nice burial just outside of Sunburst on family friend’s farmland overlooking the Sweet Grass Hills.

It was very hard to come home to Great Falls that next day with just our Riley, and we watched him carefully the next few days to make sure he was going to be okay.  Cody put forth great efforts to ensure we’d never forget him.  He left his chew marks throughout our home, which were previously sources of sour feelings, and now make me smile and think about my sweet dog with the load of quirks he had.  We found a digging project he’d started in the back corner of the yard, what we lovingly refer to as his hole to China.  I know in my heart that Cody had a beautiful life, one with patient parents who dealt lovingly with his quirks, fears, and anxiety.  He was never abused or neglected and was so ultimately loyal to “his people”. 

I knew High Trust was in our lives when no one went to blame about the accident, in fact it didn’t even cross our minds.  I don’t believe that accidents like this, or, worse, ones that take human lives, happen “for a reason”, but are just horrible accidents that no one could have predicted or expected.  I’m so thankful that I am surrounded by such healthy parents and a beautifully healthy husband, because blame would have so soured our situation.  Instead, we are so grateful for the 2 ½ years we had our sweet Cody in our lives, and for his amazing “brother” Riley, who provides such great companionship and love to us, and thankfully, seems to be doing well, even without his buddy around.

I took the time to explain this story because it has been such a marked event in our lives and in this summer, but also because it demonstrated to me how High Trust is not just a class I take, but is how I live.  I couldn’t be more blessed to be married to such a healthy man, who helps me remember to be grateful for each other and the countless other blessings in our lives.  As we begin, this fall, on the journey to bring a child into our lives, I know there’s no better person for me to share this challenging experience with, and no better person to help me deal with the possibility of a tough pregnancy and much pain due to my Rheumatoid Arthritis. 
I found this cute little picture of my two babies from last summer.  Cody looks thrilled and Riley is laid back as usual. Weird just having one little follower, but so glad my Riley is still around. (He's laying at my feet right now.)

Cody loved trips in the car, even if he was squished and looking pathetic!

We all look so young in this one! :)

Monday, January 16, 2012

I am from...

My introduction activity for my next class required a little more creativity than usual, but it was sort of fun.  Have you ever considered where you're "from"?  Below see my explanation and poem, "Where I'm From" for my introduction to my classmates in this class.

I am from...
Well I've lived in Montana my whole life, currently residing in a city just 100 miles away from my tiny hometown. My travels and "worldy adventures" do not make me the person I am as much as the people and experiences I've had right here in my own little paradise, Montana!

I am from...
 
I am from the middle.

The middle of nowhere and the middle of sisters.

I am from big.

Big Sky Country and big hearted parents.

I am from small.

A small, small town and small worries.

I am from work.

Dad’s right-hand girl and working at learning.

I am from fun.

A fun childhood, fun experiences, and fun life’s work.

I am from great.

Great expectations, great accomplishments and great company.

I am from trials.

Trials on my body and trials for my mind and morals.

I am from faith.

Faith in Him, faith in others, and faith in myself.

I am from love.

True deep love of my soulmate, and unending, unconditional love of my family.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Last Blog of 2011

...nevermind that I haven't posted one in four months...here's a fun ending to 2011!

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?
Started and finished 8 master's degree classes
Witnessed the miracle that is a new mother and a newborn baby

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I resolved to make no resolutions, so yes.  This year, the ol' "lose some weight" resolution is back thanks to a holiday season filled with way too many goodies!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Jen, Ashley, and Brianna!  Two new nieces and a nephew!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Thankfully, no.

5. What countries did you visit?
Just ours!

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
A master's degree!
A fun summer trip with Hubby and my family

7. What dates from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
March 6, and July 7 because my nieces were born.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
My coursework in my master's degree.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Wow, that one is tough. And the truth is a little too personal to admit.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Another year of Rheumy Arthur Ritis!

11. What was the best thing you bought?
iPad, TV, or my Kindle Fire. Yikes. Electronics? I'm turning into Jeremy!

12. Where did most of your money go?
Mortgage, Car payment, and student loans. Namely: bills.

13. What did you get really excited about?
Babies being born and Ronnie staying with us.

14. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Lady Gaga's whole CD will always remind me of Ronnie and summer 2011!

15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
– happier or sadder? I wouldn't say either... – thinner or fatter? about the same...needing to lose about 10 pounds! – richer or poorer? richer, thanks to 20 extra credits and a step down on my salary schedule and Jeremy's new job.

16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Wish I would have visited Haylie more this fall since the weather ended up being good.

17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worrying about silly things (like the roads!) and nagging my amazing husband. :-/

18. How did you spend Christmas?
With all of my siblings, mom and dad, husband, nieces, and the rest of our great extended family!  This was a great Christmas!

19. What was your favorite TV program?
New Girl and BIG BANG THEORY

20. What were your favorite books of the year?
I actually read several great academic books, but those aren't any fun to discuss.  The Help, Heaven is for Real, and the Tale of Desperaux were my favorites!

21. What was your favorite music from this year? I continued to favor country best, but LOVE Lady Gaga and Taylor Swift best.  Fun "top hits" are good too.

22. What were your favorite films of the year?
The Help, I suppose.  Not a big movie fan!

23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? I turned 24 and I taught summer school in the morning and then went to dinner with Jeremy and Ronnie that evening!

24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Being finished with my masters already!

25. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
Flowy and floral.  Love loose cardigans!  I also stocked up on more "beautiful jeans" and I love my selection now!

26. What kept you sane? Jeremy Ryan Knowles and my support for teaching, Mom, Laurie, and Debbie.

27. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011.
I am smart and can overcome some crazy tests.  Also, as I said to Jeremy tonight: "I am still young!" AKA Babies can wait.

Friday, August 19, 2011

Dual-Bloggo with Veronique AKA the Blog of Parentheses

We're sittin' on the couch (Brooke's brown microsuede couch in the basement).  Brooke's just finished her homework(for the night, folks. Don't get too impressed).  Veronica just returned from a girlfriend date at Sonic (where Brooke was not welcome....uh!).  Our plan is to do Just Dance! Summer Party for the first time (Jeremy only bought it for Brooke a month and a half ago...NBD).

We shopped with Mom today (at many places, but Wally World stands out.)  There were two sisters shopping with their mom in the grocery section (the freezer aisles).  They were CAH-REEEEEPIN! (Why? We don't know.) 
Our possible explanations? 1. We look like twins. (Twins are sometimes interesting, case and point, Carol and Colleen.  I'd stare at them...)
2. They thought we were Taylor Swift and Carrie Underwood. (We get confused for them a lot. A LOT.) 
3. We had globs of ABC gum on our butts. (Which might be a problem since Veronica was wearing a short dress today. Ask mom. It was short.)
4. We reminded them of their third grade teacher. (We are teachers, they had teachers...it's a legit connection.)
5. (and this one is definitely most likely) We are beautiful.

At the beginning of this summer we had a large agenda (okay, we'll be honest...we wrote out a color coded contract and legally SIGNED them with our blood (just kidding...just a pretty marker)) of activities to accomplish before Veronica left for college. Some of these activities included:
a. Going for nightly walks (except for when it's raining, smells weird outside, when Cody and Riley just aren't having it with the neighborhood canines, or when we are being stalked by the paparazzi....which happened often, of course)
b. Just Dance EVERY day (except the days we wake up late, have to work, or need a drink of water)
c. Salad for lunch and dinner (we ran into a few lovely manager's specials at Smiths with the lettuce) daily (except for when the lettuce has little brown spots on it, when we are out of ranch, or when the house is fully stocked with starbursts and wheat thins)
d. Plan and do fun activities (except for when Teen Mom, The Bachelorette, Keeping Up With the Kardashians, The Glee Project, and Quilt in a Day are on....yes Veronica resorted to watching an old lady talk about quilts with Brooke on at least one occasion.)
So...since we are such busy girls and all of these exceptions kept blocking our path to awesome productive summerness....here we sit at the end of the summer having accomplished none of them (we DID however, become aunties again to a beautiful new niece! Remember, we are the queens of excuses...? :)). (double chin smile...we didn't eat enough salad) :))

Here is our list of activities for next summer:
1. Start a dessert business. Brookie's Cookies and Ron Ron's Bon Bons (we're taking requests for our first products! Maybe a bon bon cookie? Or a cookie bon bon?)
2. Travel to each of the seven wonders of the world in a self-navigated hot air balloon (with rainbows and sparkles on it, of course)
3. Writing more of these dual blogs (aren't we HILARIOUS!?) :))
4. Buy a slip-n-slide and host neighborhood slippy parties (you don't have to actually live in the neighborhood to attend...but the maximum occupancy will be 1000 so it's gonna fill up fast...)
5. Rent an inflatable bouncy house to live in for a couple days (not even kidding...that one would be fun)
6. Do our "twin for a day" experiment (tally and record the data into an Excel spreadsheet)
7. Start an ostrich farm (they have big eggs).

Well, we've succeeded at our number one success for the summer: procrastination.( We're still sitting on the brown microsuede couch...you didn't think we were typing this while dancing, did you?)  We'll stop getting a kick out of ourselves (we've burst into laughter about our wittyness approximately 16 times during the composition of this blog) and being lazy and get to dancin' now. 
(We're doing Firework by Katy Perry first.)

This is the best picture we could get in a series of about 9 shots. (You can see the Carrie Underwood/Taylor Swift resemblance here, huh?)

Monday, July 11, 2011

Falling in love again!

         It's amazing how fast things can change.  Just 6 days ago, life was pretty normal. Then July 7 rolled around and my world changed!  When my sister had my niece, Haylie Marie, that day, my heart changed.  I guess it's the closest thing to a mother's love I know...and WOW!  She is so absolutely beautiful and perfect! I was lucky enough to get to spend her first 5 days of life with her, and now that I'm back at home, I miss her so much!  No offense, Jeremy, but this is by far the quickest I've ever fallen in love!  I type with tear-filled eyes because I'm longing to hold her and look into those beautiful, bright eyes right now!
       Haylie's Mama is amazing to me too.  I know a lot of women give birth, but I guess I've never been close enough to someone to understand it all!  To think about what a woman's body does during the whole thing is an absolute miracle.  Then the amazing synchronism of Mama and Baby once she's born "makes a person wonder how anyone could ever question God" (as said so well by my sister, Mama Brianna).  I'm so amazed at Haylie's Daddy too!  These two parents are so amazing and will raise Haylie so well!  She's a blessed girl!
        Until the next time I get to hold "my baby" I'll have to get by with the pictures we took.  Here's a few that I love:
Love her hair!

My Mama's talkin' to me! :)

Sun-bathing beauty!

Look at my biceps! I'm gonna be a strong woman like my Mom!

Oh soo pretty!

Love you, Hayliegirl!

Sunday, June 26, 2011

ARFF!

When feeling a little beaten down, we go to solution!  Spend time with HEALTHY people and enjoy a cotton candy ice cream cone!  Up, up, up!   I'm filling my ARFF (Achievement Respect(Love) Fun and Freedom) and sickies cannot get me down!  Even with a suppressed immune system! :)

Good thing dragons don't exist!

Kinda wondering about people these days. Here's a birthday card I got in the mail today.

 "Once upon a time there was a princess who was like a size four or something. She could eat and drink whatever she wanted and always stayed really skinny and had flat, firm abs even though she never went to the gym. Every time she tried on jeans, the very first pair fit perfectly and made her butt look amazing. She lived in a great, big beautiful castle with her handsome husband, who was busy all the time buying her giant diamonds, taking her to Hawaii, giving her foot massages, and telling her how beautiful she was. One day, she was eaten by a dragon and no one cared. The End."

hmmm... Taylor Swift's lyrics to "Mean" come to mind here...